wasteland, baby!

soft touches on the countryside

paints the whole sky blue, when it's all i could see

all i could feel

nothing ever leave a trace on this harsh skin, not even your touch

but i could see it

i could feel it

and out of my will and awareness, that's all i could feel

in the midst of a sinner's hopeless prayer

a small sigh and your name comes out of my breathless lips

wishing, hoping, begging

mouthing the words you should've said, directly to the creator

because that's all that i ever wanted

you're all i wanted to feel, to see

the sun, the shade of the cross, 

the overgrown grass, the screams of fun whispers you sweet mornings

you lay down on her thigh now, thinking this is the closest you could be to heaven

looking at my eyes, you sighed hard, harder

realizing it's already happening

there's nothing stopping you, yet you hesitate

now, with teenagers laugh and tears right at this summer, 

when the whole world turns dimmer, the sky's still blue

however your heart won't turn back

knowing you're all i could feel

all i could see

i don't have the choice to walk away, neither do you

but you hestitate

as you smoke away the unsaid promises.

july 6th, 2024